Awake.

a-wake [uh-weyk]

-adjective

4.	waking; not sleeping.

5.	vigilant; alert

Well hello. I'm awake it seems.

Today aj bleached part of my hair and I really do like it.
We were going to put pretty colors in it too but we ended up just leaving it bleached and I think I'll wait for a while to put the colors in now.

This is just nice.



Next week I go with becca and anni to meet this girl named rachel so she can pierce my septum. I am a bit scared I'll admit, but I don't want to back down now, otherwise I feel as though I'll never do anything... I can't quite explain myself right, sorry.



I took some nice photos at the park the other day in photography.
It made me happy.

I don't know what exactly makes me happy anymore. Most things only content me lately, and few times am I actually happy.



I feel everything slipping and it may be okay
because I can feel myself slipping and falling and sleeping
and I and I
just
want
to






be.



And I want to go to a school of photography and I'd love to take pictures of bands, even in local bars because that is one of the few things that makes me happy.
My dad and I hardly ever get into fights but this is the one thing we can't seem to get over. Or apparently I can't, because I just need to get these ideas out of my head of going to an art school. oh sorry dad.


Rory makes me happy.
photos make me happy.
cigarettes make me happy.
Brokencyde makes me happy.
DanceGavinDance makes me happy.
Becca usually makes me happy.
Morgan makes me happy.
Italy made me happy.
losing weight makes me happy.
Pokemon makes me happy.
sc3n3 k1dz make me happy. (:



some girl asked me to be her gf the other day.... FML.
Why can't guys find me attractive? D:



ugh. I'm gonna go read a book or something.

Good night.